Feeling down these days...
I feel like I'm having trouble pulling myself together.
I don't enjoy winter. The cold weather gets to me. It is beautiful outside today, though.
I feel like I'm not a good teacher to my kids.
Not feeling original. Even though I get a bug in my brain to do something creative, everything else falls to the wayside and I'm neglectful of other responsibilities.
Feeling guilty about stuff. Namely, not being a good teacher to my kids. Are they even learning anything?
I wish I were more organized.
I need to drink some water.
I need to get social security numbers reissued for the my two youngest (see "I wish I were more organized" for explanation). I love spending hours in government buildings. That should be fun.
I'm not very patient.
Having trouble with my identity. I know my identity is not in the things I do, but I still feel prideful about the things I do and I'm having trouble letting go.
I feel like I'm failing with homeschooling. I know it's not right for everybody. I can't tell if I'm depressed or just feel like a miserable failure.
I wish I didn't cry about stupid stuff everyday. Like crying over my last sentence; just typing it made me well up. My pride and people's reactions to me give me anxiety over changing their education.
I always feel like I'm pregnant in the winter because I cry about everything all the time. I'm not pregnant, by the way.
Why do I scream at my kids? I forget the gospel when I parent them...
I still haven't finished my lesson plans (eek!) and the next faculty meeting is coming up.
I wish I could do field trips everyday.
I'm pretty frustrated being in my own skin. I need a break from my own flesh.
I'm ready for spring...