Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Fleeting

Holding my feverish little one today. You know the wintertime drill: runny nose, flushed face, fever, dry hacking cough, and watery eyes. And, of course, there's vomiting because he's a Hill. We're just waiting for the stomach virus to hit. It's raging through our church. Poor thing just keeps looking at me; wanting to be held. I've pretty much held him for two solid days now. I've just wanted to love my babies.

I keep thinking of Sherri today. I keep waking up at night, praying for her peace and relief. I've thought of her all day today. Today she woke up and readied herself for her baby's funeral. Her nightmare is burned in her mind. How has the Lord held her together? I know that Rick is grieving, too, but for some reason (maybe because I'm a mother), I'm drawn to Sherri's despair. I've never even met her, but her baby's sudden, tragic death is something that is so real, so tangible; it has really shaken me. I pray the Lord would sustain her and her husband.

Life is fleeting. My life may not be as perfectly planned as I'd like for it to be. He is sovereign.

5 comments:

Virginia said...

Yes. Me too. I cannot stop thinking of how tortured she must feel. Everytime I look at my kids, I think of her and their loss. I cannot imagine that pain.

Melissa said...

It's the first thing I think about in the morning. Maybe it's God's way of saying to us to pray for them. I don't know, but I feel like I'm reliving every horrible thing I've ever been a part of.

Amy said...

Wow, it does make you so grateful for each day we have with our little ones...they really are not our own! My prayers are with this family and you as you have a puny household!

MattD said...

I understand the feelings a Mother must have but dont get caught up in the tragedy. This is a task God has given them. They are using this to glorify God and to spread the gospel. If you have the opportunity to listen to Rick on the radio do so. God's strength is helping his family and they realize that God has allowed this to happen to help use their child's death as a vehicle to spread the word. Pray that God will continue to strengthen them and their marriage. They will be tempted to blame one another and to be mad at God. Pray that they will continue to look to him for strength and guidance.

Marsha said...

"How precious is Thy lovingkindness O God! And the children of men take refuge in the shadow of Thy wings."
Psalm 36:7

"If the Lord had not been my help, my sould would soon have dwelt in the abode of silence. If I should say, 'My foot has slipped,' Thy lovingkindness, O Lord, will hold me up. When my anxious thoughts multiply within me, Thy consolations delight my soul."
Psalm 94:17-19