I've been thinking about having a daughter this week. And also about ants, which have raided our house this week. But mostly, I've been thinking about having a daughter. I have visions of a dark-haired little girl, with an easy smile and a winning spirit that attracts many friends. And she may be sweet, but she could possibly be bossy (I'm a bit bossy), she could be neurotic (ahem- let's not even go there), she could could be manipulative (not me!), she could be overwrought and emotional and snotty (visions of myself when I was fourteen) and she could have dark, swarthy eyebrows. You may be thinking, "What? You don't have dark, swarthy eyebrows!". Oh, yes I do. I carry tweezers and a mirror with me at all times (just in case I have an eyebrow emergency). I still have visions of being called Kim Dukakis in 1988. Do you remember him? Allow me to remind you.
Michael Dukakis has swarthy eyebrows. Just saying...
Anyway, why does this matter? It doesn't. Except that I'm vain and neurotic and self-righteous and want her to beautiful and winning and sweet (See? That reflects how good of a mother I am). I've never thought about any of those things when I've been pregnant with the boys. My only thought when I've been pregnant with the boys is, "Wow, I wish I would stop throwing up." But now we've introduced a new element in this life and that is how I (ME) could affect my daughter. Will she watch me obsess about food when I feel out of control? Will she see that I'm more conscious of my appearance that I should be? Hmmm... How irrational my expectations are! I am a sinner raising children! My human-ness affects everything I do. Really, the only thing I know that I do right is saying to my children, "Hey guys, Mom's not good enough on my own effort to get to heaven, thank goodness for the sacrifice of Jesus and the grace of a loving God. I'm gonna screw up big-time (and do all the time), but Jesus is perfect."
And we've already raised (practically speaking and with the help of her mother) one little girl and I'm watching her be an adult with exceptional interest. She's beautiful and kind and we're awfully proud of her. She's our girl.
Maybe she could help us out a bit with baby girl #2... What do you say, Rach?
5 comments:
1st- love the blog look. That is yet another reason why I like Shabby Blogs... it's easy and it doesn't mess with your other stuff. Love them.
2nd- ahhhh welcome to parenting a daughter. I know each gender comes with its own set of worries, but it feels like, as a mom, you have all these other "womanly" pressures with a daughter. But like you said, when it all comes down to it, with any kid, it's all about pointing them to grace. Just sometimes, it hits home a little closer... daughters are absolutely wonderful to have. :) They are a sweet, sweet joy. I'm looking forward to meeting my new one tomorrow.
XOXO Kimmy. You're gonna be a great girly mom.
Love the new blog layout!!
You're right...she will be watching you but honesty will cover a multitude of sins!
I think having a daughter will teach you more about being a mom than you ever thought. But I think you'll do great. It's very exciting and I look forward to meeting her.
and I happen to love your swarthy eyebrows. Better to have too much than too little. No body likes a penciled in brow.
Girls are awesome! You'll love it and she will be soooo protected by all those boys...miss yall
You have such an exceptional vocabulary!
Honestly, I have caught myself at times having to choke on words that want to come out about my weight and what I look like because Ivey is standing there watching me and listening to my every word. SOmehow, only by God's amazing grace, does she have a good start to her opinion about beauty and God's standard. I am so thankful for what He has done in her...I think about her arm and how I would be...vain! yet, it doesnt seem to embarrass her or bother her anymore when other girls ask..."what happened to your arm?"
But I am in awe of what God has done despite her crazy messed up momma!
I think you will be amazed at how God uses your daughter to change your views of beauty as well.
What a wonderful adventure you have ahead of you!
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